Limping Marathon Runner

Look at this. It'll be fun. USD$500 is a little steep. But, the idea is catchy.

Tonight, I got my little revenge on my opponent for hitting me at my chest, with a squash ball at light speed last week. Today, the ball that I returned just ricocheted off my opponent! I was breathless from laughing ..... having tummy aches and I could barely stand up straight.

Slacking all over again! I am suppose to go through 3km and there wasn't enough time. When I was done with 2km, I suddenly felt nauseous. Silly.... it was the gas that I was trying to burp. Must be the two bananas that I consumed before my swim. Mainly kicks today and that absolutely took my breath away! Still good, 2.6km.

I caught the movie, Transformers, with EndlessTrail today at noon time and I enjoyed it. Transformers are considered to be toys of my era, although I never did own one or followed the cartoon series at all. It was all, an item of would-like-to-have luxurious goods. A sentence in the movie reminded me of a longer quote that I ever came across. "Chick before dicks, Bros before whores". LOL. Good show, cool CGs....!

Nearing to 5pm, I headed to Chinatown for some errands and met a tourist from Pakistan asking for directions. I helped him to take pictures and pointed out some places of interest to him. Since I was still early for my colleague's wedding dinner, I went to check out the new mall, Central. It seems pretty normal, nothing too exciting. Usually, I don't take much food during wedding dinners and this time round, I ate something in advance. To kill time, I sat in the hotel lobby listening to some audio files. Around, 7pm, I found out I was in the wrong hotel! Two hotels of similar names. Fortunately, I was not that far away and it was just 3 bus stops away.. Phew... made it.. and still the earliest among the whole lot.

Cable T.V. showing Jeff Corwin kayaking near hump back whales in Alaska. How cool is that? Uber.

Training resumes tomorrow. Slack? May I?

Damn... the training took up a full day. Playing the role of a host, I brought our trainer around town (with a fellow course mate) for some window shopping. While looking at some people overclocking their PCs in Funan (some competition), I saw my cousin and his wife having their coffee break. We exchanged a few words and I sent our trainer off to Esplanade before I went to Vivocity. Since I was early, I read a book on Orlando while sipping my cup of caffe latte. Reading through some magazine, I stumble upon a piece of news on WWE. Chris Benoit,The Rabid Wolverine, was found dead with his wife and kid, in their apartment. A double homicide-suicide case. His signature was Crippler Crossface, Sharpshooter, German suplex and Diving headbutt. This is sad. For those who remember the "British Bulldog", Mr. Perfect and Eddie Guerrero (Latino Heat) passed away too, sometime back. Even though WWE being an entertainment company, I respect these sportsmen for their profession. Once all ex-colleagues arrived, I received a SMS and I went over to meet up with them. The four of us took our dinner at St James. I did not think that the dinner was all that great even though the restaurant is well known. All of us enjoyed each other's company more than the food and service. We talked about the times that we worked together. One of us is leaving for overseas for studies and it will be three years. With our appetite to satisfy, we went for ice-cream! Blah blah blah.. chatted till it was around 11pm before we left for home. Our dear friend bade good bye with a heavy heart, all of us promised to stay in touch and we will.

I received a post card from another friend as well, on her holiday, telling me her activities. Aww.... *Envious* But, that's sweet. I have not received post cards for a long time. I recall sending one to AGB while on world's highest post office. The other time was like 10 years back, when I was in U.S., sending to you-know-who.

Another long day tomorrow. What?! You mean my Saturday is gone?

... and again. ... I don't own this weekend. Tight, packed, squeeze all you can. I want to pack stuff soon.

Kind of stoned by today's work. Work? Suppose to be on course. I am. But, I was shuttling in and out of the training room, answering calls, calling people, giving instructions on how to install stuffs that goes "Next" "Next" "Next" Hit "Finish". Email! ... What good is training? My colleague, undergoing training with me, was not spared as well. I do not know how much I have benefited. At times, OJT will might be the best.

Still in my zombie state, I arrived early on the tracks and started off. Trying to conservative, I chose to finish a 7km. I just want to monitor the condition of my foot for now. It held up well throughout the whole run. Right after that, it was 3 sets of chin ups, 3 sets of hang-man, warm down and shower time. I was so drained till all I did was I waved to Mabel and Shobido.

Thinking about it, I saw a few familiar faces in this entire week! I must be working in the wrong side of town!

I think I might have solve the foot mystery last night. I cannot confirm anything. But, everything did look the same. During ultramarathon last year, the big toe's nail on my right foot was bruised and I felt the strain on my right foot. The exact spot of the strain is near outer top side of my right foot (not on my toe). This time round, the same spot and again, I have the same bruise on my same toe. Coincidence? No idea. Certainly, I do not hope for a third time! Last night, while trimming my toe nails, I clipped a little deeper on my bruised toe and out came a red colored liquid oozing to the surface. Ah ha... I exerted some pressure on the toe and a stream of liquid squirted as far as 75cm away! Reminds me of an old Sunkist commercial! Is the pressure building up underneath my toe nail, leading to the strain? Who knows?! Our foot happen to have the most complex bone structure... maybe some imbalance was caused?

Damn, it feels great to recover from my nagging right foot issue. I was able to do some squash swings and played a few sets. My foot felt alright during the entire session. Something new did happen. I was struck by the squash ball. After returning the ball near wall, I turned and ran back, only to find my opponent hitting the ball towards my direction. I received a "punch" on my chest. Owwww.... It was like a hammer thrown at me. It was funny and we laughed at my misfortune. But, seriously .... playing for these years, I have never been hit, head on. Everything has a first time, don't they? Redness has turned up and probably a bruised blue black tomorrow?

Endlesstrail is finally back and missing all the Peruvian babes already. Suppose to be my "THE" trip of this year as well. Aahhh... too bad. Move along.

Uniques?

Fresh from the oven (passing out from climbing course), some of the guys tried their hands (and legs) at climbing today. Touch the top! Nothing and I mean nothing can stop them! The slight drizzle did not dampen their spirits at all. They just went on and on, trying different walls. Me? Official photographer - sweating together with them. Looks like I will play a role of an audience till I get my cert. My turn to get all wobbly arms and legs. Half way though, we saw a familiar figure, Skyvers who was with Rainbow. I had a brief catch-up chat with him. Once enough of climbing, we returned our rented gears and moved around the area where there are walls that looked like a 100m high. We peeped into the boulder gym (reminded by Roentgen's blog) and it seems like a really fun place to train your skills.

What's for lunch? (Always the question) Chicken rice needed some time - due to queue, I guess. Kops21 bought some dim sum and I randomly picked at the Fun Cheong. Chicken rice soon came and it looks pretty tasty. Hmm... pass! Could use this for LSD motivational food for one's soul. Roentgen asked when can I actually go for Level 1 climb, so that I can join them for Level 2. I don't mind! Learning new stuff is always meaningful to me - soul food.

Back in those days where Internet was nothing but a bunch of wires and really high specs servers (show some simple information), there was just so little to do. Now, I can watch parodies done by Weird Al Yankovic on YouTube and laugh at them. Something which was called cassette tape ruled during my teen days. Poor students can't afford such luxurious goods - cassette tapes of idols like Debbie Gibson. That led to another solution called O.A.. I strongly believe there are more to come in the future and more changes in the world of Internet.

Cross training in equipment test (almost like cross training), I have gone all hay wired. I missed out something that has left me stuck for the past few days.

I picked up an audio learning ware and a book. Two separate things that I have always wanted to learn. Life - An endless learning journey.

Getting some stuff done at Vivo, I came across the demo set for Xbox 360 with Call Of Duty 3. First time, someone walked away from the console and I got a chance to try it out. Awesome graphics and sound! Tempting!

*poke poke*

My bruised toenail looks like its clinging onto the flesh of my big right toe. Weird to say that this is one self inflicted injury rather than from running. I went "Owww" when I dropped my baggage on my foot, last week in Phuket. It certainly looks ugly now.

I purchased a new pair of Asics Cumulus VIII this afternoon, during lunch. No, coming GST hike was not THE push factor. The GST will come anyway. I shall let my foot rest till next week's run. Seeing people sweat in sports gear makes my leg itch.

The pig trotter is starting to turn into chicken feet. So far, everything seems to be going as planned. Having said this, still feeling the aftermath of too much char kway teow and roti canai. Doing damage control now. Sick.

I am the legal spammer for today! People asking the obvious and they just kept giving me chances to flood their mailboxes! Need more PDFs?!

Just 800m .... I want to slack! Well, more like I let the waters cool my ankle. Who wants pig trotters with vinegar? Even at kicking, I took it easy. Now, it was like experiencing how does a lower dipping pair of legs in waters makes one drag. Mindful of dragging lower half body - balancing. I will need to raise those legs and sleep tonight! Come to think about it, I did not sleep well on the bus last night! Got to sleep now!

Yet again ... new things from this race, Penang Bridge Marathon 07. I enjoyed the good food and company. But, I have learned much from this race as well. At the start or finishing point, I met plenty of friends and familiar faces. Nice to see each and everyone of you! Lots of FR and pics to catch up. *Owwww*

Time to go shopping for my shoes. Cumulus VII is way due to be on retirement plans. Let my right foot rest and we shall do the purchase. *Owwww*

Sleep deficit, inherited from last night's noise from other occupants, everyone was contemplating if they should just sleep through and take breakfast,lunch and dinner before we board our bus back home. Agreed! Were there more half-marathoners than full distance runners in this accommodation? There was so much noise last night when we were in our bed around 8pm. Wish we could all stay in bed but we didn't. Waking up at 1am, we were ready to battle our reluctant inner thoughts at 2am. Making our way to the gathering point, there were already hordes of students along the way. Most of them had "the puzzled look" injected into their faces. 'Why are these people wearing bottles around their waist?' One could sense that he is being watched.... At gates of the gathering ground, I was being stopped for not having a second BIB behind my back. They wanted both my BIBs at chest levels *WITS!* 'You can't pin on the race belt.' I had to pin my rear BIB on the spot before I was allow to enter. C'mon.... firstly, I am blocking the way, can I be allowed to move aside? Secondly, how .. in the name of some holy crap am I to pin the rear BIB myself?! With much argument and disgruntlement from the staff, I was asked to pin my BIB just after the gates. There were so much commotion at the small area. Lots of runners had to turn back and get their BIBs before being allowed to race. I occupied myself with stretching and washroom visits, to distract my mind from the earlier incident. 'Slacker! I'm looking for you!' It was Cheow12. It was great to see a fellow slacker. I met Bernard and his partner (knew them during Phuket Marathon last week) as well. Making our way to the start line, I saw Mythos, Jennifery, Kops21, IMD and YeeHua. Shut was just beside me.

The race started. 'What am I doing here at 3am on a lazy Sunday?' It is not lazy anymore. Trotting along, Shut and I exclaimed at the water point that was barely around 500m away from start point. It is meant for our second loop and people are already starting to take water breaks! We continued our way, passing a loud disco on our left. People's party had ended. Ours? We just got started! Looping around before we went up a ramp to join the bridge, we were still good. Occasionally, I stopped for a photo or two. I noticed how long the bridge looked and said to myself, 'Here goes.', as I ran towards it. The gradient of the bridge was not as bad as it seemed. Did I just feel something on my left foot? Point noted. Several times during the stretch, there were spots of foul stench where you would not last even if you can hold your breathe for a minute. Wait a minute .. I did not come across any Port-A-Loo (portable loo) along the way. With my mind drifting away, I looped under the bridge and started my return leg. The returning route was just as dull as the way we came. With the entertainment from my MP3 player and half marathon runners on the opposite side of the bridge, I survived boredom. I saw Eliza on the other side.

I lost sight of Shut somewhere. He went ahead of me when I was doing my stretch somewhere, sometime. Exiting the bridge, I heard sounds of loud music coming from the end point. I had to keep left for an extended loop to Queensbay mall and further away before turning back. Along the way, at 25km mark, Powergels were distributed. I kept the new packet and consumed my own "Apple-Lime" flavored Powergel. Yucks. I'll stick to my Raspberry cream. On the opposite side, Fennel was already on her way back. She was followed by Kops21 and HoHoRunner. At the turn around Queensbay mall, first light was seen and I took a picture of it. Two, actually. Or was it three? .... Too many. I carried on. The U-turn point seemed outrageously far and it was definitely a form of encouragement when I finally reached it. Oh... the sunrise scene looked different again. More photos taken. I got to get going, no more clowning around. By this time, I was already down to every 2.5km for a run/walk break. My left foot was already giving problems. Some fellow runners thought I was giving up and kept encouraging me, when I was only taking scheduled walk breaks. As long as I reach before 6 hours, I am still happy about it. After the 35km, we need to carry on another stretch before turning back into the end point area. That 5km to 40km mark was no easy feat as well. Sun was up high in the sky. A 5:30 finishing time was still possible to me, at that point of time. I felt much lighter when I saw a "1km left" sign. Another obstacle or other obstacles came into view. There were plenty of walkers from 21k and 10k runs, dotted along the way. I had to maneuver by elbowing through the crowd as I turned to face the finishing line. There were plenty of people hanging around the area, sitting or standing, walking or running. It was a total mess. I crossed the finishing line at a 5:32 timing as I received several congratulating shouts from the side. 'Slacker!! Why are you so slow? Taking pictures, right?' I am truly guilty of taking my own sweet time. :p After collecting my finisher medal, I heard from IMD that Tricia had to be dripped (dehydrated). Take care, Tricia! Another runner suffered similar condition and had to be sent to hospital for a night's observation. I met YenErl who did her 21km (Well done!) for this event and Runwitme whom I did not get to meet at Phuket as well. Some folks did exceptionally well. Needless to say for IMD, TeeLee and YeeHua. Fennel took women's 19th position too. Well done, guys! Cheow12 came in before me and credited me for his fast timing. 'I cannot be behind Slacker Bala' Win liao. Haaaa... With several of us around, we took pictures together at the finishing line before most left for their hotels. Shut, TeeLee and I made our way back to our motel. We stopped for 7-11's Slurpee before carrying on. First time ever with Slurpee tasting like you struck gold on a treasure hunt. Most left for lunch where Shut and I decided to sleep it through lunch time. Fennel's mum's friend (confusing) took us around for feasting Char Kway Teow and we ended up at Komtar. Settling our dinner there, we made our way back to collect our baggage at our motel before boarding our bus at the terminal heading back home. I can sense the coming of a pig trotter.

In a way or another, I found myself awake when we crossed the Penang bridge. I took my digicam out and started snapping. The bus terminal was not too far from the bridge and we alighted the bus with everyone still yawning and stretching. Searching around, Roti Canai seemed to be the only "logical" choice. Not bad! What's missing? "Teh tarik!" Oh yeah... perfect. Did I mention there were cockroaches crawling out from my bag?! What the ??!!! Must be from the bus!! I had to empty everything from my bag, throw it all around and pack everything back. What fun I had. TMD. We met some Red Hawk runners there as well but we went our separate ways since they wanted to stay else where.

Stomach settled?! Good! Separating into 2 groups, we took cabs to our accommodation location (notice I don't call it hotel). It is $22 Ringgit per night, per person. How "hotel" can it get?! We took 2 rooms and dropped our stuff before seeking out Queensbay Mall to collect our race pack. I bumped into Joggers there. He was with his friends. Something bad... real bad. I forgot my receipt for this marathon. I thought to myself, how bad can it be? End result - it took me to go to 5 different stations, asking around before I was issued with a receipt stating my name and particulars. Great. I can collect my pack now. It took me another station to highlight my number before I was standing at an eye power station where I was waving my receipt to catch anyone's attention. 'What size?' 'Small' 'Small? Don't have!' ..... No idea what our indication of Tshirt size is for. I took whatever was in the clear plastic and walked around the race expo area. With the rest of the guys done with collection, we shopped in Queensbay Mall before stopping for lunch at the food court. Fennel's cousins were kind enough to show us around with their cars moving us from point to point. We went to Gurney drive area for a shop at the mall and then dinner at Gurney. Char Kway Teow it was! The hum-less (no cockles), hiam-ful (with chilli - spicy) and hay-less (sounds like hairless, means no prawns) sent Eliza into a state of confusion! Shut ordered Indian rojak for us to share. Set! We can head back to base! Back at the accommodation and in our rooms, we packed and prepared for the race ahead of us tomorrow. Race starts at 3am, means that we have to wake up at 1am! Better sleep now since its is 8pm. Lights out!

Since we (those taking bus to Penang) targeted to meet at 8.30pm, I took my dinner at Beach Road market and had a bowl of tang yuan. I collected tickets from Shut slightly earlier and checked in for the rest of the guys. Once Fennel, Swoop, Kayano, TeeLee, Shut, Eliza and I were ready, we boarded the bus. At the usual stop (Yong Peng), we took some light snacks and drinks before we carried on. The show that was played was not at all interesting. Somehow, Steven Segal's movies just don't seem to make it now. I had a hard time trying to fall asleep with the driver's radio channel fixed at some "hypnotic" Indian tunes. Please send me to dream land... I need all the sleep I can get.

Out of town again, at tomorrow night. I will head up to Penang with Shut for Sunday's extra early race to beat the heat. Looks like I'll have to re-pack my bag tonight and move out right after work. My return trip will be a little tight and I have my clothes with me so that I'll head right to office on Monday. How tight is that?!

As Conan complains, 'You're idling! Such good life, out every weekend.'. Yeah. Right. Grass is always greener ... elsewhere.

I never had a breather from work since I got back. It has always been this way. A slight ache in my quads could not keep me in my chair. 'Running gear on!' and I headed out for a short 5.8km. Enough. Clouds formed rapidly and signaling that I should go back. Indeed, a heavy down pour followed as soon as I reached home.

As I speak, I am struggling to recap and write the FR for Phuket's trip and race. I have not touched on my photos yet...... slow.

I recall seeing two SMSes about diving trip invites. One from SH to Bali and another to Pulau Tioman. Not sure, I think I need to look at my bank statement. Too many things.. ... too little resources. Where is my SCV? 'Go harvest some minerals and Vespene gas!' When was the last time I had compressed air? Throat itching.

Moi


Day 1, Day 2 and Day 3

Back from my trip at wee hours this morning, I was off to work in just a few miserable hours of sleep. No matter what, I still would like to have my swim in the evening. Just a form of recovery. My legs were feeling okay. Just some slight achy feeling in the quads. Those quads need some blood circulation, right? Hence, it was a usual swim and I clocked a 3km before chatting with the guys. YeeHua joined us at the swim today and I heard from my slacking twin that YenErl was at Laguna Phuket race as well.

I shall do a short run tomorrow.

Back from a wonderful trip. The whole marathon was entirely another story on its own. Updating with pictures very soon! Thanks for all the SMSes and well wishes for my run there!

.... A long race field report. Warning. You might just fall asleep .....

My alarm sounded off at 3.30am before I took a shower and went through the usual ritual of getting dressing for the race. A yam pastry (I bought yesterday) and museli bar was my breakfast that would see me through my first 21km (at least). With Angelo, we gathered at one of their rooms. At 4.15am, we flagged down a Tuk-tuk to bring us to the start point. While making our way there, we felt slight drizzle once we saw the wet roads along the way. Not good. Not a very good sign. The second half of the journey appeared to have dry floors. With loud music and Emcee speeches, we were sure that the race was about to flag off. It was about 5mins away from 5am and I went to relieve myself. I did my warm up stretches and there was a countdown in Thai. Flag off!

I was right at the back and 5 metres away from the start line, there were puddles of water seen!! I walked my way out to the main road and took a slow start. The first few kms of the route was pretty dark. The sun was visible to other parts of the globe. Keeping my pace to relax mode, I saw a fellow runner (Pacesetters) with a tag on his back that says, "In memory of Terence Leong, Penguin 6". Friends remember you as a runner forever because of the bond. Before the 8km mark, I did a left turn at a wet market that was already busy with activity. By this time, the sky turned to a light blue as first light approaches. The far and beyond hills had clouds above them. Not a positive sign for a sunny day. *Fingers crossed* I went on. At 11km mark, a slope was clearly seen ahead of us. 'Push it through!' It is after all a hilly course. Further down the course, I stopped for a toilet break and spoke to a fellow countryman, Benard, who was waiting for his partner. Water stations were ample and well spaced with plain water and energy sports drinks as well. At around 12km, it started to drizzle. I held on to my digicam since it was not exactly pouring yet. A runner was seen on the return at the other side of the road (24km). I flashed a thumb up to each runner that was seen on the other side of the road. Things started to change at 14km. It was raining heavily. The roads had puddles of water. Mud puddles formed across certain roads. I was drenched. 'What could be worse?', one might ask. Lightning flashed across the sky before a loud boom from the thunder. I monitored the skies for a second flash. It never came again. *Phew* I was joined by two Caucasians which one of them called me "Kung Fu man" because I was seen doing my stretching at every 5km mark after 10km. He thought I was doing some Kung Fu moves. A brief chat along the way and I did not wish to affect his run. I was ran this marathon as a leisure race and it does not mean anyone else would have the same objective. At 18km, Nai Yang Beach was in full view as we ran along the stretch. I paused at various points to take some pictures of the sea. I did a U-turn and headed for towards the 21km mark. One of the water points served bananas and watermelons! Energized by a up of sports drink, I stopped just slight after 21km (at an open area) for my stretch. A quick time checked showed that I was faster than expected. Nevertheless, I "refreshed" my legs with some good stretches and it was as though they were given a new lease of life! I noticed a group of dogs started to close in on me, I began to slowly walk away. Fearing that they would pounce on me, I turned occasionally to check. By then, they grew a little aggressive, started growling and surrounded me. I stood my ground and displayed signs of aggression. Acting as though I had something to throw at them, it took me around 30 secs to break away from them before they picked on other runners. What's up with them?!!! Yeah, probably they felt I was a slacker and needed some push. Occasionally, the rain came and went off (more like passing showers). I recalled passing by a mosque and several Wats (temples). There were a few rubber plantations with tapping that were going on. All these reminded me of my younger days that I had to walk to school each day on foot for 30mins. Rain seemed to have stopped for good when I reached 28km. There were enough water in my shoes to make my toes feel squishy. Nearing 29km, a Thai runner chatted with me, or at least tried chatting with me. I could not decipher a single Thai word he said with my limited knowledge of the language. He spoke very few words in English. I asked if I could take a picture of him at 29km and he promptly agreed! While near 30km or 31km, I photographed a couple of water buffaloes that were by the side of the main road. 'Don't charge at me!', I hoped for the best. They appeared a lot friendlier than those dogs at 21km. Streets at 34km were full of energy that led me to believe most people were already up and out of their bed. It is a rainy, lazy Sunday! 'What am I doing with wet shoes?' I should be in bed! I would like to say that the volunteers were great! They stood in the rain and took turns to seek shelter from the rain. Some even volunteers even took the initiative to run across the road (water point at the opposite side of the road) to offer ice cold drinks to us. That saved us some precious energy have to cross the road to get a drink. *Grateful* Some volunteers even took the opportunity to treat the rain like Songkran Festival. I kept myself busy looking around and soon arrived at 38km. Scent of the ocean was in the air. Runners ran with Layan Beach, followed by Laguna Beach on their right. I passed by the exclusive beach front of Banyan Tree Phuket resort. 'Can I stop?' It certainly was tempting. I had to press on. The stretch of road ahead looked familiar as volunteers cheered, 'One more km!!'. Indeed, I saw a 41km sign. In a matter of minutes, my name was announced as I crossed the finishing line. 5:50! I slacked and looked like a total n00b with this timing which reminded me of my virgin marathon!! Haaa!! What is most important to me is that I enjoyed each race!! Yes .. the rain dampened my running momentum, as I am not a fan of running in wet socks and shoes. The scenery and things I saw along the way made up for it. My target for this race is to come back with 5:30 - 6:00 (hrs). Penang Marathon is just a week ahead.

Just around the corner, I was greeted by friends. I am glad for each of them because they enjoyed their run as well. We did not hang around the race venue going through the tents. Maybe I shall try the complimentary massage next time. I took a couple of bananas and a drink before taking a cab back to our hotel. Taking my well deserved shower, Shamrock was kind enough to make coffee for us!! Good service, eh?! With a shot of caffeine, I was still able to sleep like a log for a few hours. We regrouped at 5pm and our lobang queen (local terminology for having knowledge on plenty of great deals and offers), Shamrock, brought us to Royal Paradise Hotel's cafe that served $199 Baht buffet! Carbo-reload! For what we paid, it was indeed a good lobang and seemed like a frequent place for tour groups too. I would say that is one place to recommend for "all you can eat". We made our way back to our hotel as the rest watched Seal and me pack. It was time to say goodbye as the rest will be staying longer in Phuket.

It certainly was a great race and fantastic holiday for me. The best deal? A bunch of nice people to escape away from daily struggles in life. Yikes... back to reality soon.

8am, it was. *Guilty* 8.30am (actually) was the time that I showered, changed and appeared at the cafe for our complimentary breakfast. I bumped into Julia, who was on her way to swim. After last night's survey of the pool, it is rather inviting. Anyway, I left my swimming trunks out of my packing list. I was surprised to find that the rest of the guys were not at the cafe and that left me feasting on "the most important meal of the day". After taking my time at sipping coffee, I took a walk to the beach. I figured that they might still be asleep. This morning, the sun was a little shy. With clouds always in the foreground, it casted a dull lighting on most subjects at the beach. Mists formed at remote hill tops. I spent my time photographing things around the beach before receiving a call from Seal saying that they were at the cafe. Reaching the cafe, I had my second helping of breakfast. I needed to carbo-load after all! Angelo (Shamrock's friend) soon arrived at our hotel and Shamrock introduced him to everyone. He will be staying at another hotel. Angelo will be taking the 42km too.

Once done with our breakfast, we took a bus to Phuket Town for more ... shopping? I must say I am not really a shopping person. Maybe that is the "home" me. When I am overseas, I would rather look at the local culture, lifestyle and building. However, this time, I happened to get a good buy for a 5L waterproof bag for kayaking with just $13. It was actually the vertically placed sea kayak that caught my attention before I spotted the waterproof bags. *Growl* ... my stomach protesting for food. I picked a few pieces of pastry and bread with Angelo (a fellow bread lover) and we chatted while coaxing our stomachs with bakery delights. Time passed before we were joined by Shamrock and Seal. While the rest wanted just some coffee or drinks, I opted for a meal instead. We settled down at Black Canyon Coffee with Seal recommending this cafe. Well .. what do you know? My decision to order a meal seem to have affected the rest. Everyone ordered a meal with drink too. I had a Tom Yum Soup with Fusili and Phuket Sunrise for my drink. Phuket Sunrise is actually coconut yoghurt blended with pineapple juice. Yummy! *Slurrp* We had long talks in the cafe before heading back to Patong on a complimentary bus.

We walked around the hotel area and Shamrock's attention was captured by a Crepe stall and next a pancake store. While Shamrock, Angelo and Seal took turns finishing the pancake off, I occupied myself with picture taking of the store and their chocolate banana pancake. Come on! That was just appetizer. We hunted around for a good eatery and settle for Subway for its value and healthy choice. The soft drinks selection triggered our interest more than the sandwich itself. Mirinda has a sapphire blue coloured drink with Berry Punch flavor. Seal tried a drink that tasted like pomelo. Time to retire early. Once back at our hotel, I prepared my gear for tomorrow's race and watched some T.V. programme before falling asleep. Targeted time to wake up would be 3am in the morning. I don't think I will get race anxiety .... too tired to be getting it.

It was an early day for me to Phuket with my E-ticket stated a 7am flight. Don't ask me what time I woke up. But, I reached the Budget Airport just before 5am. After checking in and passed the immigration gates, I walked around the shops and bookstore before heading towards the boarding gate. A familiar face asked for confirmation. "Are you going to Phuket?", questioned Phishy. There was a last minute change to the boarding gate and she was confused. It is always a treat to see familiar faces.

Once in the air, I kept myself busy, staring out of the window. Rows and rows of cloud looked like candy floss which turned the whole sky into a wonderland. I spotted an island with green vegetation surrounded by pristine waters gently caressing the shores. Within 15 minutes, we touched down at Phuket's airport. After picking up my pack, I bought a ticket to Patong beach. Packed in a minivan, we got transferred to a tour agency where people heading off to Phuket town will hop onto another minivan (transfer). Upon reaching my hotel, I checked in and got a surprise once I stepped into my room. It was better than what I thought it would be. LCD TV, queen sized bed, bathtub were simply fantastic. I can even watch TV while soaking in the bathtub! No time to lose! No, not taking a bath now! I dropped my stuff and met up with Seal, Shamrock, Julia and David in the restaurant for breakfast. I took some cereal, a cup of coffee and was eager to move out! We walked to a nearby mall for some shopping (fav time busting activity back home). I was looking around in a sports departmental store and most of the items carried a same price tag compare to those back at home. "Thrilled" is the exact word to use when I saw a sea kayak in the store. While most of them wandered around the mall, we decided to meet again in an hour's time. I took this opportunity to head towards the beach which was a 10mins walk away. The ocean view was great and it was complimented with a clear sky. Taking off my shoes, I left my footprints on the beach. With sea water wetting my feet each time the wave hits the shore, I walked almost the entire stretch of the beach front. At one point, I stopped, stood in the open for a good 15mins with sea breeze blowing at me. I felt totally relaxed at that instant. Time check! It was time to head back and meet up with the group.

In search of a place to eat, Shamrock brought us to a place that they tried last year. The portion was a little small, given the price tag. What do you expect? It is a tourist spot we were in! Taking a walk back to the hotel, some of them wanted to rest. Seal and I took a walk along the streets and we saw people taking Open Water classes in the small pool just outside the dive shop. It was not too long before we stopped at a StarBucks coffee joint to chill out. Meeting the group back at the hotel once again, we took a Tuk-Tuk to Laguna Beach Resort to collect our race packs. Not much of a surprise, we saw Uncle Chan's name on the list of marathon runners. There little to see at the race pack collection venue. Some New Balance shoes, magazine, other marathon races and that was all. With strong recommendation from Shamrock again, we took a bus to the Lotus Restaurant which serves good, value for money seafood. The ambience of the restaurant was set for diners to enjoy their food while facing the ocean. I wanted to capture the sunset and was waiting for this moment the whole day. I was kind of disappointed when the sky turned cloudy. During our dinner, it poured as well. Now, back to the dinner we had. I really have to say that is it certainly value for money. The mango juice was of good standards too. Since we were waiting for the rain to stop, we had a second round of drinks. Once the sky cleared, we took a bus back to Laguna Beach Resort looking for a cab back to Patong. It took both parties a while to negotiate the prince before cabbie drove us back to Patong in his Volvo. We went back to our rooms and agreed to meet at 8am the next morning for breakfast. I took my shower and caught Star Wars on T.V. before I actually saw "stars" (falling asleep). It was one long day indeed.

Recent work assignments and catching up on new stuff have left me stoned. Fortunately, I was able to get some air with some light runs (few days) and tennis (just today) session. I will make my way to Phuket for the marathon and definitely some food (plus sight seeing) to go along during the trip. I have re-routed my ticket for Bangkok (Lambie's wedding) to Phuket. I was down with fever then. Now,... flight is at 7am and I need to reach around 5am. I'll try to catch some sleep during the flight then.

Marathon review says the hills are alive!

I will be back with field report.

Today's swim was way ahead before finishing and we got halted by the life guards due to heavy rainfall. Just when I was enjoying the therapy of rain drops massaging my body, I had to leave the pool after the alert by lifeguards' whistle blows. The slackers echoed in unison, "Thanks to the lifeguards, we can slack!" It poured for a good 20 minutes or so that left us with no choice but to change and head out.

This afternoon, I notice a change in the food I ordered. I have always been singing praises to this particular for their value deal meals. Today, it shrank in its servings. It's coming. GST hikes.. everything shrinks. Services.. goods.. soon, even my plate of Char Kway Teow. Or is the GST hike helping in controlling our diet or intake by reducing the portions ... ?? I think they just made a $2 lunch a fossil fact! Just another statistic down memory lane! Who knows? Maybe one day we will get bite sized serving of Char Kway Teow? Here's to healthy living!

This is just great. Even StarHub's SCV wants a piece of the pie. Who else is in?

With recent announcement of upcoming GST hike, I woke up to find my Big Bun turned smaller and my cup of coffee tasting like it came from a third or fourth brew. A few other individual organizations have highlighted their own fare increase for their services or products. I am sure that more will follow suit.

I took a ride to the east side for today's appointment. Since I was early, I did some reading at the library before I meet up with the guys for kayaking. Captain JackSparrow ordered our crafts to be launched. We saw Pico crafts around the area, which I believe that there is a class going on. Our expedition team consisting of two dancers, two bandits and one shalom cruised around the area. The sun was kind to all beach lovers around the area today. Big fluffy clouds decorated the sky providing a shade from the scorching sun of the hot afternoon. There were a few really humongous jellyfishes swimming in the sea. No one wants to do a capsize here! Two hours around the area was like "time passes when you're having fun". We failed to do a re-make of Runners' World wallpaper for Captain JackSparrow. But, we promised we will be back again!

After washing everything in sight, the very important task up next .. was to look for a place to fill our tummies up. Where is the "makan queen"? While we ran a deep search through our non-functional database, we wondered what was the "makan queen" up to, at that point of time. Ba-Chor-Mee it was .... and more! We had to make room in our stomachs for some satay and stingray too.

Suppose to climb today. It was not ninja training like what kops21 has described. I was zapped of energy and tank was already at "Empty". I wonder. 5 slices of bread (with spread) and 2 bananas for breakfast. Nasi Lemak for lunch, where I saw HKWong (my Men-In-Green buddies). When I reached the climb spot, I was empty (punctured). My mistake. I should have brought along something for the tummy to work on. Stomach muscles need to train as well, right? As a form of compensation, the group voted for Botak Jones. *Faint* No work out and I ate instead? I think I need the extra buoyancy and insulation. The force around the waistline only grows stronger.

Wow! Another tool from Taz's blog called Map My Run.

I am no robot. Excuses and lame ones too. My mind was drifting away like a fallen log in the great ocean when I was around 2.5km of my swim. I swapped from freestyle to breaststroke and stopping at 3km. I think I will set my target at 2 hours for my 3.8km swimming leg. Good to be conservative. Babumouse claims that I can finish off by 1hr 20mins. *ROFL* I wish.

Covered quite a fair bit today and I am 20 pages away from finishing another chapter.

Ah.. slopes, love it or hate it. I took my time to walk while River Maya's song was on the radio when I was at the Kent Ridge Park peak.

News mentioned that there was an earthquake in Yunan, China. Another destination for my holiday. I hope people there can recover from this natural disaster.

Just got informed by Ling that tomorrow's terns shoot has been called off (probably due to migration?). Too bad. *self administers slaps* More reading, more! Then, its workout time.

I wonder how did the ride turn out? The weather in the afternoon wasn't too good. Stripped of the idea (riding to Pengarang) and had to be a bookworm today, I managed to finish another chapter.

Yay. First 50 Dates is on later. I missed that movie when it was on the big screen.

I'm glad that it is a holiday tomorrow. When I heard about the Pengarang trip out, I was really excited about it. I totally forgot about my studying plans. *dang* :( I got to do some reading while I can.

Look like its ... till another day.

The last installment of our 2 Star course was today! The morning session was for our project work, leaving us - two teams to present our work. Our original instructor had injured his course and has failed to join us for the afternoon session of mini expedition. Another instructor assumed the position instead. We got our Dancers out and went for early lunch before we start our mini expedition.

After a short lunch (it was our eagerness more than anything else), we did a short brief with first team leading the first leg of our expedition. We are going to One Fullerton and will be crossing Sheares Bridge from below. After we launched our kayaks, we crossed over to the condominium side of Tanjong Rhu. Keeping left, we soon had Sheares Bridge over our head. Nice! With two on-coming dragon boats, we kept compact and squeezed through. Next, we orientated ourselves and headed towards the sun dial location. The Ferris Wheel was already on our right. We crossed the Sheares Bridge again for the second time with the Fullerton One ahead of us. The PICO sail crafts were around the vicinity too. With a raft up sign, we gathered and did a short check before we swapped roles. The second group (our group) took the lead for the route back. I was almost nominated as the lead again. But, we suggested that my buddy should lead since she will be able to control the pace then. On our way back, there was a test of skills with two fellow mates executing the capsize drill. Rescue work was performed swiftly and a short discussion before we went paddling back to our familiar shallow waters area.

More tests!! Backward paddle to reach an certain distance before we switched to self practise sessions. Each one of us had to display the skills we have learned so far in our 2 Star course. I cleared my skills test. I was totally high, when I was able to perform a few low brace turns without capsizing. It was like wheelie on wheels. Pack up time! We washed our gears and bathed before collecting our certs. Our certs - after three days of more skills and practise.

Exhaustive testing .. yes, I can smell the appliance burning. Finally, I solved 2 problems out of 3 that I have been facing for so long. The last problem is seriously one tough cookie. I hope I can crack the code. Tiring though... I gave the run a pass for today and was caught slacking by my slacking twin. Ooops.

.... Great balls of fire!

I took an early dinner and allowed the Ba Chor Mee to be digested. Uh oh .. the defacto chilli - dry version seems to have started something in my tummy. I rather my heels set the tracks on fire! I got more than I bargained for. My behind - on flames. I was determined and completed my 7 sets.

With good, cold Ching Tng, it was instant gratification! The flames were put out at 2130hrs. Satisfying.

Back to square one at work. There is just so much I can do.

Fortunately, I was able to play ball after work. Tennis then squash with some friends. A good workout since I have not been playing these two racket sports for at least half a year. Around there, I suppose. Took me a few warm up strokes to get back the feel. It felt great.

Time to get that racket I have been eyeing?

Second day of my 2 Star kayaking course today, with a morning lecture that lasted till almost 11+ am before we got some action in the sea. First, we refreshed our skill on stern rudder. Next to be taught was sculling draw. It took me a while to get the feel of this drill. Alvo and Meteor dropped by to see our class and we had lunch together.

After our lunch, it was Kayaker to Swimmer rescue method. Everyone buddied up and perform the drill while I took a picture of Kops21 shouting for help as a victim. We learned bow rudder next. I took a longer time than sculling draw to learn this. I would not say that I have mastered it. But, I sure need more practise. As usual, my right handed bow rudder is better than the left (everyone has a master side). We gathered and I was appointed as the "classroom" expedition leader. Obviously lost, I gave a direction and short briefing of our crew in the party and headed towards our objective. There were two planned and one genuine capsize. Rescue was performed swiftly and we rafted up to swap roles. Once we reached the suspension bridge, we gathered near to the Tanjong Rhu condominiums to perform a mass capsize and rescue. I learned the face down method to get back into the kayak as well.

The next challenge set by our instructor for us to get back to the beach. First part was to do a back paddle. Second part was to switch to left and right sculling draw. Third challenge was an edging and paddling back. I capsized a few times and got rescued. As instructed, we did our low and high support. One of my attempt at a high support (with my shoulder touching the water), I capsized again! Parts of a learning process. My next attempt at edging while paddling was better. More practise, I would say. The highlight of today was that I did a edging turn near the beach. Great!

Today is the first day of my 2 Star kayaking course. 2 fellow 1 star classmates: Sam was already there while Teresa was sick and had to call it off. Soon, the class filled up to 9 attendees and theory was first conducted before we launch off. Our practical was conducted using Perception Dancers. Personally, I preferred the shape of a Dancer. Upon launch off, I got this feeling that the direction sense in a forward paddle seemed easier. Due to the shape of a Dancer, it is less maneuverable and more prone to capsizing. Immediately, it was proven with a fellow classmate executing an accidental "capsize drill". As a recap of drills learned in 1 Star, we were asked to practise them once again. A refresher to those who have long forgotten the skills.

The instructor demonstrated a 3 steps way to empty water using the See-Saw method, which has enlightened a few of us. We learned and practised a "T" rescue or 1-man rescuer method. I was asked buddy up with a lady called Denise. Breaking for lunch, we saw Taz and KJ walking towards us. They have just finished their lunch and went ahead to practise their kayaking skills. A quick bite and we went back to the centre for more exciting stuff.

We learned edging while using that with low support and high support recovery. I tried to push myself to the limits and did not bother too much about the possibility of capsizing. That was when I kept capsizing till I lost count. To learn, you cannot be afraid to try anything! We did more capsize and rescue drills to enhance the confidence comfort level in executing them. Something new! Eskimo bow rescue was next. I was a victim while my buddy was the rescuer. I flipped to capsize myself, tapped the kayak and move my hands along the base of the kayak. That was to feel for a bump from my buddy's kayak, as a signal that she was around to aid me. That only came 6-8 seconds later. LOL! I even opened my eyes underwater and I could not spot any shadow from a kayak closing in. When I recovered, she kept apologising. Ha! I told her it was okay. Taz and KJ were enjoying themselves, watching us practising and capsizing in the sea. After a few more practise on Classic draws with edging, we beached back and washed up.

While the debrief was being conducted outdoors, I saw Run3 and LaoKaYu running their Health Group race. They saw me as I shouted out to them. Shower! Quick! Dinner time! I was already hungry. Kops21, Taz, KJ and I went out for dinner. Searching for great food (ask Kops21), we went to Yishun Industrial area for some Thai food at the store called "Taste of Thailand". Not exactly authentic, but I would say the quality of the food is recommendable. I had to restrain myself - No Tom Yum Soup. "Where's next for food?", asked KJ. *Bows* Next stop, Chong Pang Nasi Lemak store near Yishun Camp. Taz and I were looking for some Chee Cheong Fun. Too bad, the store closed down. We took some drinks before checking out a Chee Cheong Fun store in Casurina area. Another store closed! The fact is they only operate in the morning. Last option, Kops21 to Ah Li Shan along Upper Serangoon for some Taiwanese porridge. They served sweet potato bits in the porridge. I would prefer bigger chunks of sweet potatoes in my porridge, anytime! The dishes we had were good. What is a meal without dessert? Just further down the road, a dessert store left us choosing grass jelly or soya bean. Can't decide? Go "Michael Jackson" combo - Black or White? I took the combo. At this rate of eating, I am afraid even my own mum can't recognise me soon.

Bashed till I was pretty bashed up in the late afternoon.

Packed and headed back home to get changed. Still pretty stoned even when I was wearing my socks. I took a walk to the tracks to think and digest my Almond bar. Along the way, a group of SP runners came. Initially, it seems like the rain has driven them to run elsewhere other than the tracks. Upon arriving at the tracks, I found that the lights were out. No wonder. I spent my time shuffling in the dark. 2.4km warm up. 17 sets. 2.4km warm down and ran home. Take it slow. One set at a time. Not wanting to push.

Hungry! I have to go! Can't just eat and not run! Left without a choice, I ran to the tracks and saw groups of people (no surprise). I was almost forced out of the 8 lanes. Can you believe that? I completed my 6 laps and ran back. At least, I am happy that I have completed what is required. Can I collapse now? Damn hungry.

Some facts and figures on our related activities from this month's CLEO magazine:

• Running for 30mins = 6 piece Chicken McNuggets (300 calories)
  
• Rock climbing for 60mins = A plate of nasi briyani with mutton (760 calories)
  
• Swimming for 30mins = A plate of wanton noodles (400 calories)

Did I? Clearly, I do not think so. Babumouse seems to think otherwise. He claims that I am faster (equates more powerful strokes). I tip towards the "slack" side of the scale rather than "speed". I am only as fast as the slacker next to me. Oops. Covering only 2km (with strokes in between) today - see? I told you I am a slacker. It was great to see the Special Olympics folks training in the same pool again. Jeremy was assisting them as a buoy for them to practise sighting.

Taking a Supp Paper, essentially means failing the first time and having to do a re-accessment of knowledge again.

I had all the ingredients ready and started measuring one by one. Gone are the days of manual labours of beating the batter. Replacements like mixers come into play. I still like my cake, the hand mixer/beater way, just like what my grandma used to do. For the stove, she used to steam her cakes using charcoal. I would definitely love to use that way. However, I do not have the necessary stove. Charcoal? That is a separate issue. Back to the cake. Mixing the eggs, sugar, honey and butter, I gave it more of a mix rather than a beating. Next, I added some vanilla extract, baking powder, flour and milk before applying a uniform beating to the batter. For those who have plenty of dri fits and no place to use them, wear them when you cook. Anyone who fails the "wave bye bye" jello arms test might want to consider using a manual rather than an electric beater. Aroma of vanilla, honey and eggs were still quite distinct even though they were thoroughly blended in one another. I transferred the batter into a pan with greased parchment paper before placing it in a wok of boiling water. 30 mins went by and Viola! Looks better than the previous pan caked version. However, not as spongy as the way I would like it to be.

Time to stop talking and let my taste buds do their job. Okay. Safe for tomorrow's breakfast consumption.

As a kid, I was deeply influenced by my grandma with her exceptional culinary skills. Cantonese women rule. While rheumatism constantly plagued her, I helped her with most of the cooking while she directed me on the steps. Till today (after her passing on for such a long time), I miss her each time I come across the familiar smell of a Sponge Cake.

Think I'll be skipping THE run and doing my own tomorrow. Pissed. I just finished taping up my external circuit breaker and writing in a formal complain letter to the respective authority. If there is no action, someone will be the stationary target.

On my own, I cannot be taking the easy way out, always. I need help. With the electrical engineer around, no questions asked. I cannot take that. It is history repeating itself with the SCV case and power socket. I cannot hide the fact that I am pissed but I just have to take things into my own hands. I can almost choke on my own saliva.

As what it suggests, today's session is mainly for fine tuning. Additional objective, I need to adjust my foot rests, at least a stop nearer to me.

Taz, Kops21 and I (two missing partners in crime) did the registration and got a briefing on our boundaries which clearly applies to 1Star holders. We went to retrieve our gears and "Bandits". Equipped with a movable rack, we dragged 3 kayaks near to the sandy beach before launching our crafts. There were others like students around the area, paddling as well. Upon a push away from the beach, there was a noticeable difference from Kallang. The water is not as clean as Kallang. As long as we do not perform any intentional or unintentional capsize drill, everyone would stay clean and happy. Paddling with the beach front on our left, we came to a halt just before Coney Island. There were simply too much traffic going on. Captain Taz decided that it would not be a good idea to proceed. We headed back to where we came from, near several kelongs. That was when my battery went flat for my digicam. With an hour left, we tried to go near to the mangrove area. Along the way, we met some big waves (not classifying them as huge, cos I've seen some huge ones before) and had to position our "Bandits'" bow to break the waves. When we were near the mangroves, the time left was pretty short and the sky gave a threatening flash and roar. Uh oh. Got to head back like right now. Swiftly (with help of currents, definitely), we paddled back and got our crafts back at the Centre for wash up before we washed ourselves up. While showering, the sky gave a shower around the area as well! Thinking of where to eat, we went to a neighbourhood food court that seemed pretty quiet with stores that were not attracting any customers at all. Almost leaving, the Godzilla bao with some dim sum caught our eyes. One bao is bigger than anyone's fist. It has chicken pieces, chinese sausages, mushrooms, fish cake bits, crab sticks and a whole egg in it! Beat that. It is like a meal in one.

*Scratches head* I forgot to adjust my foot rests....

Hm... I think I might have found the solution to my previous attempt on my Ma Lai Gao. No wonder... I am sure this is the right direction, the one thing I am isolating. Solving this weekend?

During lunch, it was a real surprise to see Astrogirl! She was crossing the road and I thought to myself this lady looks familiar. She waved to me, once she saw me. Nice to see an old friend. She still looks as chirpy as ever.

Last night, jerks were back again, after a long disappearing act.

Just after lunch, I met up with SH to pass her something. This buddy of mine is now tempting me with a sailing course. I am not done with the kayaking course yet! 2 Star is due next week. I freaked the guys out at work today, when I showed them the MSN messages that was logged at the appliance. Hey... we are talking about ethics here. But, anyway, I was trying that out on my own MSN windows. It rocked the whole office environment for a good 2-3 minutes. Everyone panicked. Some wished they did not sent private messages. LOL! I don't even want to know! I am just happy that my testing works!

After work, it was time to hit the tracks. Slow jog there with my bag, warm up stretching and followed by another 4 laps. Yuemin, Flip, Mabel and Shobido were there as well. I proceeded to mark out the track with my trusty blue tack and paper slip for my distance. Time to try out! I did 16 sets, which seems to be the bare minimum for most people. I set my cap at 16 sets. Around the 8th or 9th set, my left hamstring was feeling tight. I slowly down a little. I would estimate that I can go on for another 10 more sets after 16. 22secs for the first few sets and up to 25secs around the 16th set. Feeling a little slack, I threw in 4 sets of 400m, slightly slow than the usual timing to work my legs a little more. Warm down was just 6 laps around the tracks. Since this is the first week, I'll give it an easy adaptation / trial approach. I was almost crawling by the end of the whole session. Hungry!

A distant star ..... is that what I think it is?

One swift familiar sound of fabric tearing, I looked around to check. Uh oh... I tore a small section of my pants, near the side pocket. Immediately, my female colleague exclaimed, 'I didn't see anything!!'. There is NOTHING to see!! I should be looking at getting new pants soon. Meanwhile, let me sew this back. In case, the hole gets bigger!

Finally, some light after much break down testing. Not much help I received from people whom I asked. Probably they did not understand why I would want to do it that way. Though not a hundred percent sure that this is what I want. At least, the results look promising. My decision to decline the update session paid off. Most shrugged when they heard that I am turning down the update session. Pick one: Have coffee and listen to people talk versus fighting with the machines. Don't need a nuclear scientist to teach you how to choose.

Today, I planned for a 5 sets at the tracks. Running to the tracks, I found that it was packed. There were at least 8 - 9 separate groups of people training around the stadium. I should say that I am happy with the results today. Right after 5 laps, I jogged back. I am contented.

..... to what? Wait. Read on.

I had a great time swimming with the guys today, after a long hiatus (which is not suppose to happen!). I did not want to push much. I just did what I felt comfortable with.

Words of Wisdom for the day:
'A slacker will always feel that he should have one more week off before he starts working out. He ensures the extension is infinite.' - Yours Truly.

*psssst* I wasn't that slacker. Just kidding. Our dear friend is injured.

Watched the Aviva Open 2007 at home today. Despite that they are showing it live on T.V., it is always more exciting to watch it on actual grounds. It will have to be T.V. for now.

A good morning session took place, while I was not the one who is late, gave me good confidence that it will work out. I have been warned.

I picked up a neat, small book from the library. Small but yet powerful! Seriously good stuff. I need more like these.

More tries (more like from others) happening... more .. more to come by.

Alvin checked with me if I would be swimming today. These few weeks have been busy. All messed up. At a later timing today after work, I went for some running high. Tracks - 4 sets to start again.

Slowly but surely, we are moving a step at a time, closer to that day. Everyone has been asking. They are more eager than I am! Fact is, I am excited about it as well!

After spending days reading (like the Big Blue Book twice), I cleared my paper today.          Certified                  , that what people would call you. Okay, now I can burn that Book One and proceed with Book Two.

Its almost here. Wake up and smell the coffee !!

A book has re-ignited my love / passion for something that was long buried under my daily schedule. No, not that big Blue book that I have been reading recently. Somewhat, I felt recharged. More importantly, I felt alive again.

Waiting .. .. Just waiting.

Since the weekend has been crappy (need to work), I might as well push myself into the shite hole. I read 300 over pages worth of info and hmm.... I am left with another 100 more to go. Back log for too long, I really need to clear this.

I had a hard time trying to leave the office. I should have just left the place. Things just kept coming and everyone just wants 5 more minutes of your time. On a half day leave, to clear a hurdle and then rushed for AhCheng's ROM. I missed my lunch which Nature Valley bar was substitute. Being the back up photographer, I witness this friend that I have known for a long time going through another phase of his life.

I remember clearly the very day that I stepped into an unfamiliar environment of a Secondary School. AhCheng was the first person I spoke to while standing in the line during our very first assembly. He had his own rough patch in life to handle as well. Like what most say, maybe life has something better in store for you. It is just not time yet.

Today, he exchanged vows with his beautiful bride, witness by close friends, family and relatives. Indeed it was something to celebrate. We had an eight course dinner for three tables. I played the role of a photographer again. This time, someone (a friend of the couple) asked me, 'Are you Karloong's brother? I am her Secondary School classmate.'. The world just got smaller.

Something that I noticed today. How the word 'Tiffany' would make most ladies' head turn. Almost near the speed of light. Almost.

Last night, already half asleep in bed, all it took was a Port Scan to wake me up. Good try ... even though the number did not register as someone in my contact list, I could tell who it was from. By the next round, I was wide awake. There used to safety nets. Kitty's simple sentence reminds me all the time.

Never touch your mobile phone if you can't walk in a straight line.

There are days that I wonder what did I get myself into and this is one of those days. Waking up at around 5am to shower and get changed for Mizuno MF Run. IMD gave me a lift to the race venue. Many familiar faces were there and we chatted until 7.30am. Without much announcement, the horn sounded off which sent many clueless about what had just took place. The race started and the usual stretch of a few 100 metres of people walking. Petia and I ran together for the first stretch leading to Morse Rd. After the first slope, I widened my steps till I reached the top only to find IMD taking pictures of runners. 'Don't slack!', I gave him words of encouragement. While downhill tends to be a little steeper than then Morse Road slope, I narrowed my steps and slowed my pace to avoid pounding on my knees. I saw a lot of runners overtaking me at this part of the circuit. Sotong caught up with me. I spotted Cokiee with a knee injury. I hope he recovers soon. That is one of a runners' nastiest problems. Then again, we have no lack of nasty problems. Looping back to the start point again, there were already plenty of runners at the finishing line, cheering for others. How slow can we get? I collected my race Tee and for AlecChua as well. I did not get to see Yankee and Taz. Time was running out. I grabbed my bags from IMD's car and left to meet Kops21. He just finished his run elsewhere and we need to get to the Kayaking course before 10am.

With NASCAR driving skills, we reached at 9.45am and was informed that the tide was too low for us to get into the water with our kayaks. In fact, we spotted signs of low tide (really low) while walking to the SeaSports Centre. Asked to take an early lunch, we took a short drive to Macpherson for prawn noodles. I took spare ribs noodles instead. Recalling that we will not be having any breaks once we start the class, we bought a bag of butter rolls before heading back. The tide definitely looked higher and we were given a green light to launch our crafts. We did some pactise and learned the side move: Classic Draw. Rescue drill was next. The four of us switched roles each time we practised the drill. Next instruction given was to head out to the "open sea", at least near to the condominiums at Tanjong Rhu. Nice Condos! We practised our Rescue drill there. We were asked to perform a mass capsize and how can we perform the Rescue drill to get everyone back into their kayaks again. That was fun. One of the classmates is rather huge in size. Finally getting him into his Bandit was no easy feat. Another classmate's and my kayak got more seawater into our crafts just by rescuing the victim (getting him back into the kayak). It was funny and we laughed at having to do a capsize drill ourselves to be rescued again. By then, lightning flashed across the dark grey sky and we were instructed to head back. One of the ladies paddled faster and capsized due to lack of control. Eventually, the instructor rescued her and asked us to proceed. Being one of the last few, I could see that there were a handful of us who could not paddle straight. *Phew* I was not alone. Reaching the shore, we cleaned our gears and Roentgen mentioned how we can have less chances of injuring everyone's backbones. We showered before we did a debrief. More like delaying tactics than debrief. Ha! I checked with some of the classmates who intend to sign up for a 2 Star course. It would be fun to see familiar faces. A pity that KJ wasn't keen and Roentgen has technical difficulties. I hope they seriously reconsider!! Meanwhile, we can rent the kayaks and practise.

Attention all jiak-ers - Dinner time. We hurried to Beach Road hawker and KJ ordered claypot rice for four. While waiting, we tasted one of the best Grass Jelly dessert and Sour Plum Juice around! Next time, I know where to get some whenever I come to Beach Road. We sensed weird stares from another table (a family) at us on why is there a need to snap pictures of all the food. There was still just that little room more.. for a fish and chips. We shared the western food and I was feeling bloated already. No match against the three bottomless pit eaters.

I cannot remember when was the last time I enjoyed the sun so much (minus the charring part). Thanks for the company, guys! Armed with a 1 Star Kayaking Cert, I am fatter and darker at the same time. Tired. To bike! Iron backside.

Something that I have always wanted to do and yet I kept shelving the idea from time to time. A Kayaking course. We have talked about this a few times, getting all the runners to join the course. Finally, that idea materialised today with me joining Roentgen, Kop21 and KJ for the 1 Star Kayaking Course. The three of them arrived early at the carpark and I joined them walking towards the SeaSport Centre. We signed in and changed into our gears. No surprise, we are senior folks compared to the participants there. The instructors did a short introduction of themselves and the terminology used. Some familiar terms like Bow, Stern, Port and StarBoard came back to me. Proper procedures were covered on what to do and why before we proceeded to do bring out our "Bandit" Kayaks (at least they had a cool name). There was a walk through of all the types of rafts and kayaks used. Following that was a "land" paddle before we got into the the entrance and exit drill for the cockpit. We had a short try out of forward / reverse paddle, E-Stop drills, 180 / 360 deg turn and E-stop. One of the kids asked us if we are teachers. LOL! We saw demonstration on how to empty water from our kayaks as well using one or two men method. I tried the single man method and did not get it right (which I felt I needed more practise). Lunch! We were already feeling hungry and Beach Rd market was the only wise choice around for its variety. The 1 hour lunch break somewhat feels like a normal working day's lunch hour rush. The second part of the day covered side move drills, a swim test and capsize drill. Okay, the swim test was more like formalities and KJ gave Roentgen a kick just to ensure that he was still awake after the heavy lunch. Capsize drill was a test of water confidence and everyone did well. We were taught paddle rudder next and left to practise. Around 4 pm or so, we brought everything on land and washed them up before we showered. All of us examined ourselves for sun burn marks. I find myself a little darker and I really need to get use to slapping sun block on my skin before the Feb '08 event. The four of us left for Geylang in search of good food. Frog legs porridge, beef kway teow, thai style fried bean curd, vegetable were just starters. We walked as a form of exercise (10m down the road) before we had some soya bean curd and carrot cake. How's that for a day? Boy.. I'm seeing stars already... 1 star? More than just that.

Looking at my schedule, I am suppose to do a long ride tonight. But, I don't think that I can squeeze in 4hrs. I did a short run instead and several sets of weights. That ought to leave my legs for tomorrow's MF race and evening's ride.

Everyday this week, I cannot even remember which day it was. I was just checking the list off my schedule. Time just zipped past like sand slipping through my fingers. I was left in one corner stoned after a meeting. My colleague happily announced that it is end of the week! I was still consumed by the thoughts of what to do, things to follow up, what is coming next and what have I missed out. My mind blanks to a stage where it does not understand what burned out feels like. I thought it would be great to have a work out in the pool for my Friday regular swim. Rain deterred me from taking a step further. It close midnight and I am still getting stuff from work. Weekend?

Each time with spare time on hand, I would like to go get some workout. It sure feels great. Can't wait for tomorrow.

Luck! I need that! From time to time, life is not necessary all smooth sailing. We do need a dash of good luck once in a while.

The sky was a little deceitful and with strong winds, I thought it would be another night without a workout. By 9pm, I took a chance with BlackSteed. I drank water from my bottle. It was fine (for the first time). The second time, I crossed over a bump (can't see n darkness) and I had water spilling over my legs. Parts escaping the splash? No chance. Back at home, upon close inspection, I spotted some rust. Signs of neglect. A quick search on the web, I think I need to learn how to clean up my BlackSteed and GreyHound soon. During the short one hour ride, I tried maintaining 24-25km/h. Whenever possible, I would try to push to 26-27km/h.

Two days worth of rest. No more. It has to end here. I do agree that it is good for the heart and soul. Nuts! Can't always do this?! Tonight, it was slacking twin's night. IMD did his sets of countless repeats? I did from scratch, more like back to square one again. 4 sets of 800m and I threw in a bonus 1600m for a test. 4 sets of 800m came as a surprise with negative splits (what was I doing?). I was probably slacking when I started. I rested slightly more than 1 set worth of timing before doing 1600m. IMD paced me for one of the 400m lap and asked, 'Is this your slacking pace?'. 'You must be kidding! Almost dead!', I panted and tried to reply at the same time. I tried to keep a constant pace. Hm... Can I say that I am rather pretty satisfied with the timing? So, I am once again confused with my level of fitness. Or has the two days worth of rest nourished the heart and soul?

Yay! My new toy - Nathan belt!

Dead tired. Fight fight fight (ermm. .. fight fire) and when the office work ended, I had to attend to some personal stuff. *blah blah blah* .. 'Okay. Sign here. If... okay. If .... okay.' Walking with my head down (tired), I came across someone who looks like Divey. Hey! It is Divey! Her hair length is longer and I nearly could not recognise her at all. A quick chat in the middle of the crowded lane *oops* and I left for my destination. I visited the newly promoted "Mummy and Daddy" of Nicholas. Little Nicholas was still comfy and fast asleep. Makes me want to yawn, stretch and snuggle up in bed. Their happy folks (Grandpa and Grandma) were there as well and they still remember me! 'You still look the same!' Wa... getting old already.. the same? Yeah, right. "Mummy" said, 'One enough.' Nurse said, 'Aiyah, every couple I met said one enough. Each time, they came back to this hospital again for next baby.' Ha! We stayed till the last minute of the visiting hours before we left. Guess what? I skipped tonight's program again. Accumulated sins.

A Special Day. :)

Well, congrats. The arrival of Nicholas.

Oh, a runner is a runner. Running around all places today. While waiting, I slipped into Cold Storage and found powdered Gatorade! Trying out one package for now. My schedule for this week leaves Thursday afternoon as free. It will probably be taken up soon. Missing out on the swim today. What a waste. No swim - No choice. Strength training - A choice.

I hope to see someone at Mizuno MF Run this Sunday. Telling me you're there to collect Tshirt as cheap thrill makes me laugh!

I still have that feeling of slow and drag while I ran today. I thought of exploring to the Tuas Checkpoint bus terminal route. Clumsy me. I forgot to take a quick glance at the route of movement. 14km in near 2hrs was near miserable or even called as catastrophically slow in timing. During the run, I somewhat recalled that I was not feeling well. Bad choice to hit slopes for such a warm weather. Drop MF then, that was the decision. Lots of walk breaks *guilty*. Technically, did what the book said. *cheater*

Two appointments gone. I needed to clear two sets of work. Crap.

Another month... maybe.. shoes shoes shoes.

Past few days kept getting caught in the rain. Feeling sick already.... or feels weird. Few tries of peanut butter sandwiches as pit stop food have failed. Almost caught dead with peanut butter (PB?). Without a doubt, I will need to look for alternate combos. Sad but true, Nutella fails the test.

Slow slow slow ride for 3 hours (rounded off - cheating) which clocked 60km, averaging at lower 20s km/h. It clouds above did display some aggression. But, it held. I have been noticing a left leg nag for sometime. I suspected the seat height and adjusted it midway though my ride. Viola! It feels better and the aching spot went off. I must have been too heavy. Eating while riding .. that was something to practise. I think I almost swallowed the wrapper of my museli bar.

Legs feel okay.
*Poke butt* Hmm .... does not hurt.

Missed the chance of having lunch together with ZhiMien since he is on half day leave (noon) today. I was in his office for meeting. Then, it poured and I was caught in the rain. Next destination would be the meat freezer rooms and I was lucky that my clothes dried up before I stepped into the freezer. In the cab, I looked at the world that passed by. People waiting for cabs in the pouring rain. Watching the world through windows with rain water dribbling down has always been therapeutic for me. Clearing the problem (was not exactly a problem) on site fast enough, I left for home. The sky gave a threatening shade of red. No, the BlackSteed is staying indoor. I changed to my shoes and went for 1600s instead. 3 sets of trial left me dripping wet. What is happening??!! *Feeling unfit*

'Don't slaaaack!!!!', shouted Aerosolcan as he ran pass me, along the canal. Confirm slack! I am a certified slacker. Two laps and I bade him farewell as I had to rush back. During the run, I did not feel race fit at all. Looking at it from another angle, it feels this way because of all the cross training in place?

No choice. My schedule at work changes last minute and I have to change all my own personal plans. It is a total mess. Cycling slot pushed to tomorrow night after my night job. Swim slot to early Thursday morning. Do not think, just do.

During lunch time, I saw Aichai and we spoke briefly. He was mentioning that work has been busy for him and he was not able to run regularly. I hope he gets some action soon. I was a wizard this morning turning rocks to gold nuggets at work. Sometimes, you just have to whack.

A recap of the swim that just took place.

Warm Up: 400m Free, 100m Kick, 200m Free, 100m Kick.
Main Set: 9 x 100m (Strokes), 3 x 500m Free (10:14, 10:04, 10:20).
Warm Down: 300m BreastStroke, 300m Mixed.

All these are not made to make me faster. Never meant to be that way in the first place. I just want to be able to smile and enjoy throughout my race. I should be able to make it for the cut off time at 2hrs 30mins. Next worry should be the cycling leg of the event. Shoulder was really behaving well. Wonderful!

Best of all, I love my Cressi-Sub Right Goggles. I always thought Speedo is it. For the same price, Cressi-sub gets my vote. The buckles are even better!

Oh no! Not again. I kept wondering the whole day what could go wrong. Something did go horribly wrong. Last night, before I knew it, I had them. My bad for failure to check. Need my hydration plan now.

No more skips and jumps. Rest when you are suppose to. Sprint when you need to.

Tomorrow is swim night. I cannot wait to try my new Cressi-sub goggles. I like the quote I read from a swim book that says, 'The coach's job was simple. Keep the pressure on, keep making it harder, keep increasing everyone's tolerance for misery.'.

LSR - Slow when the winds came head on. 19km/h ... slow. I planned to do a 3 hours ride. Greeting some joggers with a smile, there were kids who raced along my bike too. Okay, I was slow - that slow. They were amused that all of them could catch up with me. I turned, waved and laughed. A total of 48km, I wanted to do more. Judging from the look of an unforgiving sky, I chose to stop when it gave several warning shots of H2O. Initial plan was to do a 3km run - transition. No prizes for guessing that I had to cut it short. Right after I returned, it poured. My Black Steed could have been really really wet. My legs feel okay. Of course.. slack ride.

Princess TongTong's Birthday Dinner tonight. Most of my classmates came. I was playing with TongTong and XuanXuan all the time. XuanXuan is usually more responsive and she followed the way I tapped the chair each time. Heh heh heh! After so many years, we are still talking about taking a trip out, together! Looks like someone needs to take the lead. We talking about plans for a ROM dinner since one of them is getting married. I thought of taking a half day leave. But, I thought to myself, maybe a full day would be great since I can bring my bike for servicing.

Many things on the list today. This morning before the swim, I think I stumbled upon a site for the path. When is the next holiday?! Got to do a ride.

What is that?!!! A green toe nail?!! Must have been the regular swims that have made my toe nail green. Trying to cut most of the toe nail away. White - Brown - Green.

Warm up: 300m
Main Set: 2400m - 53:40
Warm down: 300m

I totally forgot about looking at my timing at 1500 and I just swam on with primary focus - my strokes. A rough calculation equates to 1500m for 35:00? My mind did wander off from time to time. I had to arrest the thoughts and bring it back each time. The main set (or should I name it "Main Slack") was not good. TMD - Just whack. Strangely, the arm held in its good position. No *twang* complains. Did chin ups help? Difficult to determine. I got to say, after the sets of chin ups, my arms were sore. They will be alright.

Bringing out my Grey Hound, I was prepared to see wounds. It was kind of expected. No point dwelling into it. At least, I gave it a cosmetic touch up. I need to get some parts changed before it hits the road again.

What else?
Books - I will put this on hold.
Run - Owe you one. Tomorrow!

Since I was in Orchard (and I went to a lot of places after that), I used the voucher to clear up some space in my wallet. I got a pair of Cressi-sub goggles and a bottle, which coincidentally summed up to $50. I was looking at Galileo (and they only had pink?!) but decided against it. It was not the color's fault - more of the parts used actually. They have screws - so screw it. I was walking around and reading my book all the time. I think I have covered most of it. Just a couple of chapters left.

Dinner was great. Meeting all my juniors which I hardly have time to play with them. I am glad we will be doing this for once every three months. All of us, cousins, had great time chatting. I played with their kids and babies. It was awesome.

Artist: Rivermaya
Title: You Will Be Safe Here

Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Chorus:

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'Coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free
Pray and believe

Chorus:

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here

When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here

Credits: From here.

I recalled this whole day's worth of work a while ago and about someone mentioning about make carbon copies of me. There are so many things to laugh about at work that I do not think that it is worth mentioning.

Got to hear from friends about their good news (left singlehood) and not so good news (still in bad shape). Good luck to all you people out there. Find peace. Never lose faith.

Read your fortune cookie today?
Mine says, 'Leap and the stars will catch you.'.
I sure could use some help like that! Time to look up!

SH was a little late today for appointment and that gave me some time to walk around since I was already early. I bought some items and browsed some books. Once she turned up, we got a spot and started to go through the list of items on the agenda. Yes, she was bugging me again. No, there is not changes to date! I barely saw her just two weeks ago! She just want to "gently" remind me till I give up. It is not about giving up! Ha! Before we left, she tried to persuade me to join the folks for some drinks (like chill-out). I had to refuse. I needed some rest.

Yay! Managed to get AGB for dinner next week! I cannot recall when was the last time, I had dinner with her! I bet she has lots to tell.

What is on tomorrow's menu? LSS? I should go do that. Much catching up awaits me. This is the last week of my 'I think I'll skip this' excuse.

Another conflict in office for the morning - more of a silent conflict. Why proxy? I have no idea. Beng called me up and we chatted for a while. He and I are facing the same kind of issues. Is there a flaw in our ideology when it comes to a reasonable workplace (peer level)? We are not talking about score cards for rendering help. Need to be that calculative? During the mid day, another colleague encountered the same issue. Okay. I thought I was the only one. I just smiled my way through. I was happy to meet up with a friend for lunch. Duck rice! Noooo .. waistline is getting out of control and slowly shaping like a donut!

Right after work, I grabbed my stuff and headed for the pool. I met RunAlone there as well. An edited version of my original intended plan for today:

Warm Up: 400m Free, 200m Kicks, 300m Mixed.
Main Set: 3 x 500m - 9:44, 10:20, 10:30 (Slack!)
Warm Down: 200m BreastStroke, 8 x 100m - 50m BreastStroke, 50m Free (Alternate breathing)
I was high during the alternate breathing sets. It must have been the feel in the waters. While stretching (warm down) in the waters, I looked up at the stars above. The distance stars that twinkled put a smile on my face. That includes Orion as well.

This calls for an ice cold Coca-Cola! Hm.. that bruised mark on my right thigh is still there. Oww.

Since I was around my place during lunch time, Botak Jones came to my mind. Botak Jones Burger is already filling. I cannot image the triple threat (three patties)!!

A mid day encounter sent me into re-assessment again?! I wish I can say, 'Cannot be bothered'. Or shall I just do that?! Looking at another level, we ought to re-work our weaknesses, right? There are instances where weaknesses cannot be corrected. Perhaps.

Asleep - During taxi ride - again. Totally zapped.

Okay, time to burn the burger before it add inches to the already bad waistline.

Did a 10km run. I wanted to follow by a 20km bike - Transition 3km run. Damn.. had to change to Friday. I have always been toying with the idea of a simulation. Might just have to plan for one.

Working on other cases in the morning, I went for my appointment just opposite MR. While changing my pass, someone caught my attention. No, who cares about celebrities. I saw Andy! Oh.. he is a quasi-celebrity! 'Gimme your money!', I hissed. Haa! Andy was wondering who sprang a surprise till he turned around. I asked him about his leg since he was walking during the KL Marathon. Better! Sounds good.

After work, it was a 3.1km swim. Too tired.

One step. Two Steps. Three. What great foresight. It was common sense anyway.

Not good. Tsunami again. I hope everything is fine and help is rendered wherever necessary.

Three pairs of Asics Cumulus (same series Cumulus 7) appeared for a run this morning. Seems like I was the one panting behind!! I must admit... I have no recollection of the last time I came up to that hill top. Thanks guys for the run and fantastic breakfast. I needed something like this.

Activation again? Yes, it was a fruitless attempt in whatever they were trying to achieve. Four hours spent in a freezer room for metal cabinets.

Fantastic. I left the place and headed straight for dinner. One hour of rest and I was off to bike. Traffic was a little heavy with folks all around the place. The road was a little more spacious during dinner time and I clocked a 40km on my 2-wheeler, followed by a transition into 1.5km run. While sprinting, I heard a pebble striking my Black Steed's frame. *twang* .... Ouch.

Sequence? All wrong. I thought it should be Swim, Bike, Run instead of Run-Work-Bike?! Missing a 1.5km swim, it would have been a Tri ... a slack Tri with plenty of transition time.

I heard this on the radio the other day. Movie: Music and Lyrics starring Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore. Simple and clear. Like many years back, Gwyneth Paltrow & Huey Lewis's - Crusin'. Search around, you will get to hear the song online.

Album: Music and Lyrics
Title: Way Back Into Love

[Her] I've been living with a shadow over head.
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed.
I've been lonely for so long. Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on.

[Him] I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away.
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday.
I've been setting aside time, to clear a little space in the corners of my mind.

[Together] All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love. Ooohhhhhoooo.

[Her] I been watching but the stars refuse to shine.
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs.
I know that it's out there, there's gotta be something for my soul somewhere.

[Him] I been looking for someone to shed some light,
not somebody just to get me through the night.
I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions.

[Together] All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again. I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end.

[Her] There are moments when I don't know if it's real,
or if anybody feels the way I feel. I need inspiration,
not just another negotiation.

[Together] All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart to you. I'm hoping you'll show me what to do.
And if you help me to start again. You know that I'll be there for you in the end.